By Daddy X
I offer you the beginning of one of
my more edgy pieces from “Surprising Myself”, a fictional anthology of women’s
first time outside-the-box experiences. The publisher asked not for
cherry-popping stories, but about sexually mature women who go over the edge. Available
in audio as well as Kindle:
…
Heated hands
roamed over my body. I wrapped myself in the soft caresses, felt the
connection, the intensive focus. Theirs to explore at will.
The bite of a
nipple clamp stunned me in its electric abruptness. I screamed in spontaneous
shock, losing the dildo and my tenuous balance on the blocks, only to swing,
kicking blindly inches off the floor. I could feel the prod bouncing against my
face as it dangled in front of me. I bobbed and parried blind, trying to spin
the plastic cock and balls so I could get it back in my mouth. Mortification
washed over me in waves.
I caught the
device, realizing I had a chicken-skin textured testicle in my teeth, not the
fake cock. That was pushed into my eye socket, against the blindfold. I
struggled to regain purchase on the blocks, spinning on the end of the chain.
When my back turned again towards the audience, someone yanked my ass cheeks
apart.
A generous someone
assisted, holding my feet, placing them once again on the blocks, set wide
enough apart to offer access between my legs. One hand traveled up the lower
leg to my cunt and fingered my slick tunnel.
Other senses
became acute behind the cloth. I could hear the crowd, initially in front of
me, turn to my back. They weren’t turning. I was. Subtle sounds of someone
clearing a throat. A cough here. A grunt there. If somebody had an orgasm, it
was plain. I barely felt the theatre-in-the-round effect, the turntable
spinning me slowly to offer a three-sixty view. Not fast enough to make anyone
dizzy.
When they first
led me out there, I was not yet blindfolded but bound tight in the rope halter.
I didn’t expect so many people. A few had already abandoned their seats,
standing in a queue along the aisle. Lined up to take a turn with me. Several
had snapped on surgical gloves. Many of the older aficionados, those who’d
stayed in their seats, probably couldn’t make it up on stage.
But they paid
anyway. For the view. Now they all know who I am. An exhibitionist and a masochist. Someone who
goes willingly on stage blindfolded, naked, trussed and suspended. Tonight with
a gag of latex cock.
The thing had
dropped down on a cord, dangling in my face. I was told to insert the longer
part in my mouth and to keep it there, the realistic-appearing latex balls
still exposed, obscuring my lips. Since the thick cock measured only a few
inches, it wasn’t so difficult. Until I screamed. By then I was blindfolded,
forced to bob at the thing, trying to get it back into position while both I
and the obscene object hung, bumping against my nose.
I could sense
those surrounding me on stage. The nearness created an echo off their bodies. I
couldn’t tell if they were male or female. Touching me. I heard their breath,
the slick slap of sweaty skin coming together as they encountered one another
around me.
“Me first,” one of
them muttered.
I heard a busy
sound, repetitive, wet and quick. A grunt. A warm stream hit my leg.
For the
introduction, I was left without the blindfold or gag. So I could talk and
better affect my shame. A loudspeaker spoke out loud and low. I recognized the
voice as the owner of the club, Brad, the man who’d interviewed me.
“And tonight we
have a first-timer with us…? What’s your name again?”
“…” I was tongue-tied, too embarrassed to even
lift my gaze from the floor.
“Speak up!” boomed
his voice. “Are you serious about this? People come here to be entertained,
young lady. Are you a poser? We get a lot of posers around here. Posers become
obvious when they get on stage. Now, what is your name?’’
I raised my head.
“M-Marjorie.” Though I barely whispered, the speaker system surprised me in its
deep volume, saturating the auditorium in the odd familiarity of my own
voice. I felt a well of shame flood my
cheeks.
“Your last name?”
“I-I can’t. Can’t
do that. I can’t embarrass my family,” resounded through the room.
“And we thought
she was serious, ladies and gentlemen. Seems we do have another poser here. We may have to go on to our next
event.”
Murmurs erupted
from various areas of the crowd. Shifting in their seats.
“Marjorie. Just
Marjorie.”
He’d changed from
the vague but considerate man who’d interviewed me. He’d turned into the club
promoter. A hustler who makes his living this way. By allowing people to delve
into their deepest reaches, and for him to profit by the exhibition. I had
nearly thought we had a connection back in his office earlier that week, but
when I suggested we act upon that connection, for him to take me then and
there, bent over his cluttered desk, he became this jaded but gracious host who
although sympathized with me, claimed boredom of it all. Brad said he hadn’t
gone on stage himself for years. His libido had used up all its chips.
“Then I’ll have to
call you ‘Marjorie the Slut’. Would you rather that, Marjorie? Would you rather
be referred to as a slut?”
I felt my face,
hot in embarrassment. “Marjorie Soquantile.”
“See? That wasn’t
so hard, was it, Marjorie Soquantile?”
“No.” I lied.
“So, Marjorie. Why
is it you’ve come to us this evening?”
I had told Brad why during the interview. He was just
making me say those things to make me feel awkward in front of the crowd.
I said, “To allow
the audience to see and touch me as I twirl; allow them to witness my
behavior.”
“Is that all?”
“And for the
experience itself. For me.”
“You’re admitting
to wanting this? Isn’t that a shameful thing to want, Marjorie? What kind of
woman would do such a thing?”
“My kind.”
“And what kind is
that, Marjorie Soquantile?”
“Must I?”
“Only if you want
to continue. Do you? Do you want to continue, my dear? Just look at those
people. They’re waiting for you. They’ve paid a lot of money tonight. Do you
want to disappoint them?”
“N-no.”
“Which is it,
Marjorie? Is that no you don’t want
to continue or no you don’t want to
disappoint our audience? Make yourself clear.”
“Because I’m a
slut. I’m the kind of woman who wants sex for the sense of accomplishment when
I do something new. Like I can go beyond the accepted to experience the other
side. Not many women can.”
I had already
disappointed enough people in my short thirty-three years. My parents. My
pastor. My lovers, my ex-husband. None of them ever understood me. Sure, men
had been happy to fall into someone like me, someone who fulfilled their every
fantasy. They’d hit the jackpot. But then reality would slam down its fleshy
hammer. We’d fall in love but I embarrassed them. I fucked their friends and
sucked off strangers I met at bars. I was too much for any of them. My behavior
got them into fights. Either they wanted to possess me, or were disgusted by
me. Not one of them accepted me as I am.
…
The audio version
of this anthology is worth the extra price. I’ve been paid a flat rate, so won’t
get any additional monetary compensation.
Now, to get this story
(and 12 others) in its edgy entirety:
I love the psychological intensity here, Daddy X. It underscores some of the key elements of humiliation. It's interesting how much of a difference one's identity makes to one's experience. This story points to how freeing it can feel to do something anonymously or pseudonymously, but also to the different and more intense way it can be freeing to embrace acts with one's full identity. Well done!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Annabeth! Your comment means a lot because your writing can incorporate these dynamics quite well, and I seldom know if I'm gonna get it even close to right or appear the fool.
DeleteWow! This is new to me, and very effective! As well as completely appropriate to the topic!
ReplyDeleteYes, this antho was a one-off by someone called Insatiable Press. Coincidentally, I'd finished the piece and posted it for crits on ERWA just weeks before the CFS came out. I had already written my submission! Err... submissive submission :>) Actually, this is one of my HEA, (or at least HFN) pieces, almost a romance.
DeleteSuch vivid visual images even though the point-of-view character is blindfolded! I can imagine a Halloween-themed party where one of the events is bobbing-for-balls. And cocks, of course. I'll bet someone, maybe lots of someones, has already done that.
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DeleteTo research those images, I read about blind people who intuit what's around them from echoes, once the mechanics of sound become familiar to them. I saw a demo of a blind person describing objects he passed in a room and on the street, making little 'clucks' with his mouth and interpreting the echo. Apparently hearing folks can train themselves as well, though the motivation wouldn't be as great. It's supposed to be easy to determine a soft object from hard. Hey!... That could come in handy! ;>)
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