Weaknesses - who doesn't have them. Find me someone who says he/she is strong willed in every way , and I'll show you a liar. It's in our nature to have weaknesses. Whether it's the inability to say 'no' to ice cream or preen at the attention from a charming, dark eyed stranger when one should know better, I believe it's inherent within us to show a weak willed streak from time to time. Perhaps weak knees when it comes to the dark-eyed stranger.
These days people tend to disguise their weaknesses by calling them 'guilty pleasures'. I have a load of those too. Watching old Western movies, the Italian epics starring Steve Reeves, my favorite singers in concert, Ella Fitzgerald in particular. Now, you may say, there's nothing guilty about any of that. What's wrong with him?
Well, I do all that watching on YouTube when I should be writing my next manuscript! Okay, so that is just weak. I can't even start to count the times when I'll pause mid sentence or mid blowjob (on the page) and distract myself for half an hour with You Tube. It really has become my nemesis in a way. I feel completely ashamed at the end of the day when I've only written a thousand words instead of the five thousand I need to get the bloody thing near finished!
Just today, I watched god knows how many clips of disasters around the world, earthquakes, tsunamis, sink holes etc., instead of getting on with how in hell is Steve ever going to get Bob to say 'Okay, let's do it'. No, suddenly watching cars and houses getting swept away, or Apaches leaping over the walls of Fort Defiance, or a Prom concert from the Albert Hall has much more appeal. I tell myself, you'll never increase your royalty check at this rate, your editor is going to start nagging for the next in the series, you haven't finsihed the edits on the last manuscript, etc., etc., etc.!
Amazingly, as weak willed as I am, I seem to have the strength to ignore all those inner voices. I simply click that tantalizing You Tube icon, sit back and enjoy the next episode of some old soap that was canceled five years ago. It's all there you know, just a click away.