by Giselle Renarde
2017 has been terrible. Worst depression year I've had in almost 20 years. Anxiety on top of that.
I've got a lot to be grateful for. Aside from tax headaches, the horribleness of this year hasn't been personal. Nobody's died. I haven't been evicted. My girlfriend's still dear to my heart.
But sometimes things can be going right and you still can't cope. Mental illness is funny like that. This world is a hard place to live in.
So how do I cope?
Doesn't work for everybody, but it does work for me. My girlfriend says that when she's having a bad depression day, comedy is the last thing she wants to consume. It feels too trivial to her. But I want the trivial. I don't want to think about all the bad stuff in the world, all the hatred and the fear. I want to laugh. I just want to laugh.
The top three things that kept me going throughout this horrible, terrible year are:
1. Mystery Science Theater 3000
MST3K was barely on my radar when she introduced me to it. But as soon as I started watching old episodes, I was hooked.
In case you're not familiar, it's a show from the 90s (recently revived by Netflix) set in the not-too-distant future. A guy and his robot pals make fun of the best of the worst B movies and sci-fi flicks. It's deliriously hilarious.
Bad movies, clever remarks and robot friends--what's not to love?
Mystery Science Theater 3000 is the funniest goddamn thing I've seen... possibly ever.
2. Four Finger Discount
this wonderful Simpsons podcast. Being a huge fan of Golden Era Simpsons, I've really enjoyed reliving old episodes with two funny Australian boys. Most of the people I spend time with are considerably older than I am, so it's great to vampire off their 20-something energy.
In every episode, Dando and Mitch review a different Simpsons episode. It goes in chronological order. New episodes are posted once a week. They started with Season 1 and they're up to Season 6. That's commitment!
Four Finger Discount is my new favourite thing to listen to while washing dishes.
Frasier so much that when I had a particularly good sales quarter a couple years ago, I bought the entire series on DVD. Every night, I go to bed with Frasier. I put it on and let it lull me into sleep. It helps my brain power down.
I'm not sure how many times I've watched the series in its entirety, but I'm not tired of it yet.
So I want to send my gratitude out into the universe, or at least into the internet. Thank you to everyone helped to create the media that soothes my mentally ill mind. Maybe you didn't know it when you were making robots or recording podcasts in your living room, but you've helped someone this year.
You've really helped me.
Giselle, I hate to see you in pain. I'm glad you've worked out how to get some respite.ReplyDelete
They say that one of the major elements of depression is the inability to think a positive thought. I think that the act of trying to make it better with comedy or whatever gets you through is at least a step in the right direction. Simple movement also helps.ReplyDelete
Laughter is good medicine. I remember an especially angst-filled time many years ago when it seemed like all that held the family together was watching replays of Fawlty Towers with John Cleese. No idea, in hindsight, why that particular show did it, but whatever works.ReplyDelete
Wishing you a much better year. Wishing it for all of us, in fact, but most of all for those most in need of it.